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Friday, June 11th, 2004
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6:23 pm
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Sorry you guys..this is the last entry in here...I got myself a new journal...that way only the special few I want to read it can get into it! :)
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| Wednesday, June 9th, 2004
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12:17 pm
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So ....where to start! This past week has been crazy! I am so happy Mandy is down! I missed her so much since I saw her at Christmas time. We have been doing something everyday so far...it's so fun.....tiring too, but so worth it. Mandy saw Adam for the first time since Thanksgiving yesterday. That went...good? Man..if those two only knew. As of right now I am trying to get at least my friendship back with Steven. I miss that! :( I miss everything...but that especially that. He used to be my best friend before the whole exploding break up. I just miss talking to him, he's a great person...and I am happy for even the littlest piece of that I can get him to give me back. Anyway...today I have a denist app. at 2! Ekk....I HATE GOING TO THE DENTIST! At least this time it isn't going to be a chinnesse person. (remembers last experience to a dentist!) Ah..so anyway...after my app. who knows what Mandy and Me are going to be up to. Something fun..that's for damn sure...there will be no just sitting on our asses doing nothing. This is the most boring town in the world..but we will have to make do! lol Yay! My brother, Aunt Mon, Uncle Ron, cousin Casey, and his girlfriend Nikki, and my little cousins Donny and Sadie are all coming down this coming up Monday! I am so excited, I can't wait to see them all again...especially my bro! well..I think that's all for now...I'll update more later...byes!
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| Monday, June 7th, 2004
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10:45 pm
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I Miss Him.....wishing I could change things...he still means the world to me. People change...sometimes just a little too late I guess. :(
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| Monday, May 31st, 2004
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11:02 pm
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So today was fun. I woke up this morning...did some running around...like I had to go to Walmart to get some snacks for my party, go to Kmart to take back the swim suit my mom got me for my birthday and get a new one, then I went up to the mall and asked Chris to go with me to get my piercings...I got my eyebrow and belly button done...they would only pierce 2 things at a time, cause "your body can't heal fast with more than 2 piercings." So yeah...then Chris and Me ran back to Walmart to get me come Bactine cleaner for my piercings adn then we were off to Megan's! Megan and Me ran to the gas station (so I could get her smokes), then to DQ to get my cake, and finally to Ingles to pick up like ice and dip for my party...haha and we pulled out of the parking lott right as dickhead was pulling in! It was perfect timing!! Then we went back to Megan's and finally I was on my way home! I got here got set up and J, Jessica, and Kelly were the first ones here, then Mikey and Levi and then Chris, Brett, and Stephy came over for like half an hour. Yeah it was fun tho....we all just chilled, swam, played cards, shit like that. I am about to fall out tho..it's been a long, eventful day...and I could use some sleep! My parents are making me take my Pre-SAT tomorrow before I go out and do anything! Grr..I have to work tomorrow at 5 too! That sucks...but such is life I guess! 5 more days till Mandy is down! I am still kinda upset she didn't call on my birthday tho! :( O-well I am out.
current mood:  drained
current music: Some Kinda Elevator Music?
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| Sunday, May 30th, 2004
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11:20 pm - My 18th Birthday.....
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Wow..so how about this day completely sucked! Chris called me at 9 A.M. to wish me a happy birthday...then after that I couldn't get back to sleep. So I laid there TRYING to get back to sleep for about 2 hours...finally got up, helped my mom make cup cakes (which later on I dropped all over the garage floor!), talked to some people online, etc. Then around 12 started to get ready to go over to Chris's (cause he was supposed to get off at 12:30)...WELL I was wrong he called me right after I got out of the shower...so like I HURRIED UP and got ready...then went over to his place. As soon as I got there....we were off to my Aunt and Uncles cause they were having a cook out today. We stayed there for like 3 hours and then left and went back to his place. We went up stairs and chilled in his room for a while and then were off to Megan's...in two seperate cars..cause I had drove out to his house earlier and my car was there...and I wasn't about to drive him back home later on. So yeah he went to get Brett and Robert and I went straight to Megan's...or at least that was the plan! I got pulled over by a cop on the way there! I got a ticket! ON MY BIRTHDAY LET ME ADD! Then I went over to Megan's (which her parents are out of town this week!) and we were chillin there and yeah her neighbor came over! We were all about to piss our pants...cause we thought we had got busted..cause Megan is not supposed to have anyone over while her parents are away..and her parents have their neighbors watching the house for them while they are gone! But Megan somehow got out of getting in trouble and we all had a good old time....Me and Chris had some "fun" and the others' played some pool and did dumb shit. I left around 10:30ish and came home! Yeah...eventful night huh? Yeah..now I am just sitting here bored out of my freakin' mind cause no one is up here and no one is online or answering their phones! Man..this blows..but I guess I will just try and get some sleep...I am getting all my piercings tomorrow! and having my birthday party! Awesomeness! Well I quess I'll update later! Bye All!
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| Friday, May 28th, 2004
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10:40 pm
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Well...today was pretty awesome! I worked morning shit today...I was on Drive-Thru...so everything was kewl. Then after work I came home got a shower, talked to Chris a little :) and then Levi came and got me! We went to Amstar and saw the new movie..."The Day After Tomorrow"...that was an awesome movie...highly recommended to others! lol Then after the movie Levi and Me rode around a bit and TRIED to find somewhere we wanted to eat...but didn't really decide on anything..so he took me home....(since I had to be home in a bit anyway) Now I am just chillin' here..on a friday night..wanting to talk to my BEST FRIEND *cough cough* and Chris :( but both are not on...well Mandy is on..but the away message is on! :( grrr....damn AOL for creating those. But yeah I guess I'll live....
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| Thursday, May 27th, 2004
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11:18 am
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So last night I did fulfill my quest. After arguing with my mom for like an hour to see if she would let me go to a late movie with the cliche to see "shrek 2"...(well at least until I found out Adam and Dickhead and all of them were going)...then I decided to instead go out to Chris's. We watched the 3rd Lord of the Rings movie. It was so good...I loved the ending too! Chris and Me had fun last night...I am starting to really like that guy! :) There is something different about him...I like that! Well as for today I have a feeling I am going to sit on my ass until 4 (when I have to go into work!) Blah...work sucks...but the money is great! Woooo!.. only 9 more days till Mandy is down! I can't wait...I miss her sooooo....much! Well I am going to go.......
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current music: Silence
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| Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
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4:56 pm
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So I worked morning shift today. That was alright...now I am home and have nothing to do. Bored out of my mind! It's Chris's birthday today :) He's the big 20 lol. Man...I need to find something to do today. I'm on a quest...
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| Tuesday, May 25th, 2004
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9:34 pm
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Wow...so these past two days have been awesome....really they have. Yesterday I hung out with Chris.......we went to the movies and saw "Troy"...definally a long, but kickass movie. Then afterwards we picked up KK. We swung by my place to ask the parentals if it was O.K. if we all went back out and about to get something to eat...cause we were ALL starving. So after a lot of debate..we all decided on Arby's...that shit was good and I even got some free chicken off of the black guy that was working...which proves if you are nice to people and laugh, joke, and smile as much as you possibly can until your face feels like it is going to fall off..then you can get almost anything you want!lol Then after eating...we ran past Meg's to get Chris's CDs back and and then back to my place. We were just about to watch, "The Ring," when KK said she wasn't feeling good...so we took her back to her grandparent's place and then went back to watch the movie at my place. Man...at the end of the night...Chris and Me kissed....I was so taken back by it at first. I was happy we kissed...cause it has been building up inside of both of us for a while and felt good to do it...but at the same time it felt weird. I dunno it's hard to explain. It was definally a good thing tho....just differnt. But ANYWAY! Today I picked up KK went to see J and Jessica real quick and then stopped at Walmart (to grab something for my mom) and at the Eye Care place cause KK's contacts have been bothering her eyes. She called off work...we ran back to my place to drop off my mom's groceries and then were on are why to Chris's place. When we got there...he was leaving to go get Robert..so we were like "whatever then" and got back in my car and went to Subway to get something to eat cause we were hungry. Then came back to Chris's before they were even back yet. So we just chilled at Chris's until they got back...they ran to Blockbuster...got Shrek and then came back and we all watched it! I love that movie! Then sometime in the middle of the movie Brett and Stephy showed up..so we all just were chillin' until around 8ish...and the guys and KK went somewhere and Stephy and Me came back home. So yeah...now I am just bored out of my mind. I think I'll go work on my scrap book. Sounds like something to do. I'll see you all later. BYES!
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| Monday, May 24th, 2004
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12:44 pm
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Yesterday was awesome...I had to work morning shift...but Rose-Mary was manager and let me go to Ingles and get us all dounuts....they were pretty damn good too, if I may add!lol Then after work...I came home got changed and met up with Chris. Then we went and got Meg and KK and all went out to eat at Wendy's......that was some good shit too. Meg and KK wanted some Bruster's so we drove all the way down to Macon to get them some ice cream. LOL...then Meg wanted to go to the Red Roof Inn and try to see George (cause him and his brother are staying there to spend time with their mother while she is in town!) So after a lot of phone calls and pestering the counter person...we got the room number and went up to the 4th floor and chilled with them a little bit. Then we were off again...Chris dropped me off first since I had to be in the door by 11 o'clock...which was kinda funny cause I walked in my door at exactly 11...cause my charm clock started going off. Then I stayed up for a bit and finally fell asleep around 12ish. But all in all last night was awesome...I love chillin' with those guys!! and we are all supposed to chill tonight too!! Craziness.....
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| Saturday, May 22nd, 2004
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2:53 pm
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Wow...so how about these last two days have sorta been pointless. Yesterday was our last day of school, I signed out right after my 5th period too! (around 11:30) and yeah...ran into dickhead walking and flirting with another girl when I was leaving. *bangs head on wall* But yeah..I just came home and chilled until I had to be at work. Work was ok...long and busy,but all-in-all decent. Then omg, after work when I got in my car to leave...I found that my car wouldn't even crank...my battery was dead. So I had to borrow Levi's jumper cables and Wesley jumped my car off his..which took us like 10 minutes to make it work! lol Yeah, then when I got home..I went to call Mandy...cause I told her I'd call her around 11:30ish....and I found out that phone service at my house and on my cell were both down cause of the storms...so yeah...I just went to sleep! :) Then I woke up today, tried to get ready in time to go to the graduation this morning...but didn't get ready on time. So I decided to stop over at Megan's real quick and then I went up to the mall....to get my phone fixed up there at the Verizon store...not knowing that they don't have tech. people there...so then I ran up to the Walmart up there and go more curtains for the spare bed room for my mom, then ran all the way to the Riverside Dr. Verizon to find out that their tech. people won't be in until Monday! Gr...I about screamed!! But now I am here and just chillin. I have to go to work at 5 today! :( then after work I am off to Jessica's Grad. party, I am just going to crash over there. Then I work again tomorrow morning! :/ I am going to be so tired!!! Cause tomorrow after I get off I can't even come home and go to sleep...I am going with Amber, Levi, and Chris to the movies!! Fun times. Well I am going to go. Everyone give me some lovins! I could use some! :(
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| Thursday, May 20th, 2004
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9:58 pm - Today Was F*cking Awesome!!!!!!!!!!
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So...this morning I had school...as always, but tomorrow is our last day!! Yay!:) Then after school I came home...talked to Chris a bit online...then headed over to J's. So how about we were just chillin at J's...me,J, Jessica, and Mikey and in walks Adam, Aaron, and dickhead...er I mean Steven. lol Like Mikey was laying on the couch and had his head on my lap and I was playing with his hair and then when they walked in I jumped up real quick dropping Mikey's head on the couch (I felt really bad :( afterwards!) and was like "well, J I think it's about time to go!" So we just left...I needed away! We had to take Kelly over to her school really quick to get some of her books she forgot to get and then we dropped her back off at their place and then took off in J's car. We went to Walmart where we put my camera in for a 1-hour developing and picked up my mom's film and got her some candy. Then we went up to Kmart to get J some shoes. Then I called Chris and he wanted to met up at the mall. So J and Me stopped at Subway and got us some grub and then headed up to the mall. I got my Staind cd from FYE and we finally met up with Chris and Robert. We also ran into Burns coming out of FYE and in Spencers again later on lol. OMG, it was funny after getting my cd in FYE...we went into another Cd store with the guys and here when we were walking out, my cd that I just bought at FYE set of the alarm in the other cd store and they had to search me. It was funny tho. Then after a while of chillin at the mall we left...and Chris and Robert were off to Media Play. Haha..we also ran into Jonna in Spencers and saw Mike H. and AJ when we were pulling out of the mall...which we raced them on the highway all the way back into Gray. J and Me stopped back at Walmart to get my film, a loaf of bread for my mom (which we had a hard time finding the bread isle...and eventually had to call my mom to have her tell us where it was! lol_) and we also had to get a camera for J's sister, Kelly, to take to her school tomororw. Then we were finally off to J's again after a long fun filled day...not mentioning that earlier in the day J and Me were dumbasses and went down a one way street...almost getting killed...WE DIDN"T KNOW I SWEAR TO GOD! It was crazy..I thought we were going to die cause there were all these cars coming straight at us and stuff....it was really scary...so when we finally got a chance we did a big U in the middle of the road and got back on track lol! Sorry I just remembered that and had to add it in here! But anyway we got back to J's around 9ish and then I just came back here. It was a very eventful day, we can definally say that!! I LOVED IT! J AND ME ARE DOING IT ALL OVER AGAIN NEXT WEEK TOO! lol YAY. Well I am off...I'll update later! I love all of you!
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| Monday, May 17th, 2004
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9:40 pm
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So today was interesting. School as usually...woooo 4 days left!!!! Then after school I chilled with my mom at the house for a little while and then went over to Jay's place. His mom streaked my hair for me! :) The first time it got messed up tho...like the cap broke in the inside and the dye got all over the top of my head!!!!! It was horrible...I looked like a freakin' calaco~>sp cat! So she went to Ingles and got some brown hair dye that matched my hair and colored in the top so that it was my nature color and left a few streaks of blond! lol So it looks good now! Then Mikey, Me and Aaron all jumped on the trampoline for a little while...playing dodge ball. It was fun. It as J,Jessica, Laura, Me, Burns, Aaron, Mike, Kelly, Erica,and then Adam and Bull...which I could careless to be there. They left a little later tho cause Adam had to go play softball on his team. I left there around 8:30ish. Now I am just chillin waiting for Mandy or someone to get on to talk to....since I am really bored!:( Only 19 more days till she is down!!!!!!!EEEEEEEEEEE...I can't wait...I miss her so bad! BFF
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| Sunday, May 16th, 2004
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2:24 pm
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So I woke up today...argued with my mom alittle bit...won..got out of going to church this morning. So all I did today was clean house, do a lot of laundry, and talk to Mandy for at least 3 hours. Man, I miss that girl! Only 20 more days till she is down! I CAN'T WAIT! This time we don't even have to worry about guys! It's going to be awesome, I am just so much happier when she is around! I guess that's why she is my best friend! lol. Well now I am off to work! :::gags::: I hate that place...but I need the money! So later!
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| Saturday, May 15th, 2004
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10:58 pm
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Well today was interesting....I actually slept in for once...that as refreshing...I didn't really have any place to be rushing off too...or anyone. I was originally requested this day off from work to go to the Medevil Festival down in Atlanta with Steven, his mom, and his grandma...but yeah as everyone knows now....that all our previous plans have been F*cked up! So yeah he took one of his friends to the festival instead...but I was kinda bummed about! But o-well I guess you'll have that. So Linny came over for a bit around 12:30ish...and we just hung out and went swimming until about 2ish and then she had to leave cause Will was going to be at her house at 2:30 (after he got off work) Yeah then I just chilled here by myself for a little bit until I got ahold of Megan. We decided to have a girls night out...so me, Megan, Kayleigh, and Jessica all went out tonight. We ended up going over to her friend Chris's house, which is all the way up by my church. It was craziness we just chilled there and watched the movie, "Seven." It was fun just chilling with them...and watching Megan get chased around the house by Chris's cats...literally! lol (hey, she had it coming...she was the one tormenting it first!) Yeah...so I found out that Chris that I was hot and had a thing for me...that just ruined the night a litte bit...It's too soon for me to be looking for another relationship. I need time to piece back together my heart..you know? I can't just drop or lose my feelings for *him*. But yeah...later on tonight Brent and Stepfy and one of there friends Brandon came over. I had to be in tonight at 11 so we left shortly after they got there! :( O-well...now I am here just chillin. Being bored! Woooooo! Only 5 more days of school! FINALLY! I won't have to go back to that hell hole for a while!!!!!!!!!!!!!Yes! lol well hey I'm out...
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| Wednesday, May 12th, 2004
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9:40 pm - Tonight Was Fun....
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I went with Amanda H. to see Hill and his band practice...there were quite a few people over there. Like Shelly was up there with her b.f (which is the new singer of their band) and Mike(Linny's ex) and a few of his friends were there and just a few other people. It was really fun tho...it was .....differnt. I felt like me again for once. I like that feeling. I still miss what I have lost tho, but I guess that will fade with time. :(
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| Tuesday, May 11th, 2004
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7:10 pm - The Drama....
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Well....today I poured out my heart to him again...and it got me no where. He told me that he "doesn't have feelings for me anymore," and pretty much there is no way I am getting him back. That hurts so bad...there is not even words to describe it. But at least I can say that I tried and I gave it my all before giving up and that I don't regret what we had together even after all of this. I just hope he knows that he still means the world to me!:/
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| Wednesday, May 5th, 2004
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9:39 pm - It's offical....
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We have broken up! :(....it hurts really bad, but I guess life goes on regardless if you want it to or not. It doesn't ask you...
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| Thursday, April 29th, 2004
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9:27 pm
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So how about this was my first day off in 6 days!...and it kinda sucked! :I had school, then tutoring, and then came and picked Steven back up at the high school and we went back to his place for a bit. He hasn't been feeling that great lately! I feel so bad too..cause there is nothing I can do to make him feel any better! :/ So yeah today we hardly even talked cause he wasn't feeling very good. We did go out to eat at the Krackle Barrel for dinner...which the food there sucks...just letting you all know! So don't go there to eat lol. Anyways....then we stopped at Walmart while we were out, cause I had to pick up a new watch and a few other things. (I ruined my old watch a few days ago when I went swimming with it on cause I forget it wasn't water resist!) Then we just went back to his house and chilled, watched the movie, "Lake Placid"...which was an all together, very demented, and strange movie lol. He feel asleep too...so I just let him sleep and left and came back here. He needs his rest to get better! I think it's his allergies kicking the shyt out of him! :( Poor guy! Relay for Life is tomorrow night. I hope my mom lets me stay up there a little late, since it goes on all night. It should be interesting tho...it is supporting the fight against cancer, which is always a good thing!:) Well I am out...I'll update later! Byes
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| Saturday, April 24th, 2004
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12:43 pm
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Wooo....only 19 more days of school....how awesome is that! I can't wait to have some freedom in my life again...I completely hate school. I am still taking tutoring tho..it's going pretty good...my grades are : Algebra 2 - 92 Chemistry - 80 Foods 2 - 84 American Lit. - 85 Economics 88 U.S. History - 89....those are good grades...as long as I can keep them that good through the rest of the 19 days we have left then I'll pass everything for the year! lol..Other than school life is going good. Lately I have only been working 3 days a week at work...which has been awesome...it gives me time to hang out with Steven and friends and just some time to chill out in general, the only bad thing about that is that I need money badly. I need to finish paying off my car insurance and I need to start stocking some money away for when Mandy is down, that way we can just go do whatever we want and not have to worry about money problems holding us back. Last night, Steven and Me hung out. We had an interesting day! After school we went swimmming for a little at my place and then decided to go out to eat. Well see, I had to make things complicated like usual. I wanted steak. So Steven is like "well, then lets go to Steak N' Shake"....(which we thought would have steak, and not be to costly, cause we were running low on money.) so yeah...that was wrong thinking on our part, so we just got shakes at that place and then went to Applebee's for dinner. I got my steak! :) Then we had to stop at Walmart on the way back to pick up a few things and then just decided to go back to my place and watch a movie. We watched, "Spawn" which was a really weird movie all together,if you ask me! lol O-well I it was good getting to spend a whole day with Steven...with lots of alone time. On Tuesday it will be 8 months for us! I can't believe we have been together that long...it doesn't seem like it. I am happy we are still going strong tho. He means the world to me. Whelp, I work today at 5, and I haven't even begun to get ready, so I think I am going to go do some chores and then I am off to the hell hole. I'll update later! Bye
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